Lately, things have been putting me down, especially school. And I think people are starting to notice it. Or maybe I’m starting to show signs of breaking down. People and teachers would come up to me and ask if I was feeling alright, that I look a little pale. Everyone would get the same answer: “I’m just tired.” or “No, I feel great.” I now regret signing up for different things around the school, and really, it’s starting to take a toll on me and it’s catching up quick. Ever since grade 11, I’ve been involved with Play, Yearbook, and Encounter, amd this year, I play a very high and important role for each. And now, there’s that and more. All that and then graduation options and scholarship applications, it’s dragging me down. I’d get so tired from school that once I’d get home, I would go to bed for a quick “nap.” I’ve been pressing the snooze button at a constant. With that, I would wake up at around 10 or 11pm and I would have to stay up and try to finish my homework. Funny, I never really do my homework anyways, so really, I’m just wasting my own time. And it’s weird how I never do my homework, I never really get in trouble… Despite the fact that there are so many things under my belt, I enjoy helping people. It’s one of my passions. I love the things I do around the school, it’s just… I need a break. I have a personal motto that I made up myself last year: “Just Continue” I posted up its meaning a few months ago:
everyone lives by some saying or by some motto. this is mine. to me, it’s put to use in the good and bad times. if we JUST CONTINUE, we pass all the things that have done us wrong, that have caused us pain. we JUST CONTINUE with our lives, with the journey we’re on and we leave the past behind and look to the future with our chins held high. if we JUST CONTINUE we live the moments that make us laugh and smile. we live in the moment. we cherish what the world, the people around us: our friends, our family, our community, our peers, and what God has in store for us. and we live the life we choose to live. we relish in who we are and we be who we were made to be. we JUST CONTINUE.
Hmm.. lately, it starting to have little meaning to me. As much as I try, I can’t help but wonder.